When the key finally fits

From my journalling today…..

When our egoic identity is fairly  rigid, whatever happens, we try to maintain it, because otherwise there is a fear of dissolution.

And yet, it is only through dissolution that we come into the true state of who we are…formless, boundless, ever shifting  pure energy.
The ego  was shown to me like the skeletal system.
It holds you in a certain structure, while still allowing a degree of flexibility.
When your “beingness” begins to move beyond that structure, others may perceive it as a threat to their own rigid structures ( which feel safe because they identify themselves with their structure still )

In that moment, they can either become curious and open to what else is possible… or else they become more even more rigid in who they believe themselves to be.( just to protect who they think they are )

As you move through the heart chakra journey, your heart energy begins to cleanse and soften everything.

And slowly, gently…
you become capable of dissolution.

You begin to step into true humility…
where the ego becomes naught.
It is still there,
but no longer as strong in its identity, because you no longer give it the attention it needs to survive.
You get over yourself… your ego self…
and begin to step into oneness.

Which state, then, feels more natural?
In one, your ego keeps bumping up against another’s…
constantly wanting to be understood and accepted, validated.
In the other,  that need simply falls away.
And in that, you taste true humility.
True humility feels like freedom from any illusion about yourself.
You are no longer” this” or “that” in any rigid way.
You don’t feel the need to protect yourself….your views, your ideology, your stance.
You no longer wish to fit in or be anything other than your truth… as naked as it may be.
There is no desire to impress, to leave an impression, or to belong in a prescribed way.
It begins to feel unnecessary… even exhausting.
And that fatigue
is not a sign that you have arrived.
It is a sign that your body is communicating more clearly…
and that you are finally listening.
The fatigue comes when you try to move in the old ways of identifying with the structure that now you know you are not.

The fatigue happens when you go against what you now know.

But once you move through this phase,
there is a shift.
As though a key finally fits into a lock.
And suddenly,
there is access to boundless energy.
Because now, you are aligned with the truth of yourself
in a way you have not been before.
The key fits.
You are powered more fully by Source,
because the mind no longer controls the show.
And in that…
you are free of the limitations you once believed were you.🩵🙏