The grand illusion plays out with or without your participation.
You have no control over how it is playing out, but you do control how you perceive what is playing out.
That is the whole point. The illusion plays out—with or without you. How you experience this playing out depends upon you.
You either get sucked right into it—churned, tossed about, going through a zillion deaths—until finally, only your true essence remains.
Or,
You choose to wake up to it being an illusion. Therefore, you consciously seek your own essence, because in waking up, you realise that the whole point of this elaborate illusion was for you to wake up to your truth.
This choice is your free will.
Free will is not about exercising control over the grand illusion to make it conform to your comfort and expectations.
It is about aligning to the will of Source despite the drama of the illusion.
It is about not losing touch with your inner compass—your heart.
It is about not losing touch with your essence—the love that is ever-present inside you.
It is about not losing sight of your blessings—no matter the storms that seemingly rage around you.
“When you find yourself in the future or the past, your mind has taken charge, and you notice, if you pay attention, that your body tenses up, as it believes everything your mind tells it.
Simultaneously, there is a more subtle aspect of you that lies in stillness- in complete communion with each precious moment.
If you consciously slow down and just be in a state of observance, you shall find that the mind is never in the present moment, almost as if it has an aversion to being there.
The more you have lived life without making peace with it and what it has brought you, the more urgently your mind rushes you away from the present moment.
It is a self-appointed protector, but instead ends up being somewhat of a strict and relentless jailer.
Each moment of every day has the infinite potential for bliss.
Bliss that comes from simply being, in communion with the Divine, in silence and in stillness.
Slow down and observe the mind….observe its patterns of negation, of instilling doubts, sowing subtle seeds of discontent.
Then decide- do you want to continue to live that way, as if you were in a never-ending act in a maddening circus that keeps going but never reaches anywhere?
If not, then simply bring your attention within.
Ignore the alluring, seductive voice of the mind.
Continue to ignore it and be still.
No matter how desperately it tries to hook your attention.
As you practice this stillness and this observance without getting hooked, you suddenly slip into a pocket of bliss.
Perhaps for just a brief moment at first, then more and more.
Your body finally gets a respite from being chronically stressed. It can finally function as it was designed to function, without an eccentric pirate at its helm!
As you do this often, your brain and body rewire themselves to new patterns that accommodate this bliss more and more.
You start to hear the voice of the universe without needing words.
Your whole being softens into merging with that wordless voice.
As you choose this experience, over and over, you start to feel this stillness and calm even with your eyes open and as you move through your days.
There remains no room within you for doubts, pettiness, holding back on Love, because love is your very nature. You realise with delight, that your truest identity is love.
A Love that has no boundaries or walls. A Love that becomes increasingly unconditional and leads you to your wholeness.”
As a human being, you are conditioned to look at the human experience as a continuous stream of experience.
However just like a film reel is merely a lot of still shots put together to give the illusion of continuity, similarly your life stream is made of moments put together.
Each moment is a portalway to infinity. Each moment carries infinite choices.
Instead of getting stuck in your need to have your life follow a linear thread where things might take ” time ” or ” hard work ” or ” lots of effort ” to get someplace, simply choose that magical moment now.
Instead of obeying your conditioning’s directive to go through so so many “in- between moments” to get to that moment (where you have healed or where you have finally connected in meditation or when you are making better choices), BE THERE NOW.
It is absolutely possible for you. Try it for yourself. The trick is to have a pure intention and simple faith.
You do not need to be taught something you already were, before you assumed all those layers of identity on top of the pure light of love that you are.
Love is what you are.
Not what you say and not what you do.
Yes, it does show up in your words and actions because anything that you are, will be expressed by you, but it is already what you are.
You need to peel back the layers of what you have been taught about love, to find the pure state of love inside you…just like you have to peel back on the layers of what you have been taught about God, to find God within you.
Sit inside yourself, in awareness.
Start to notice all the feelings that arise around this energy of Love.
Love feels like a gentle expansion.
Love feels in alignment with anything that leaves you feeling pure and fearless.
Expanded and light.
There is no stickiness or urgency about it at all.
There are no “needs” that arise out of it.
All needs are instantly fulfilled before they even arise.
It feels complete in itself.
It is all encompassing and needs no conditions fulfilled.
You have become adept at identifying your personality.
Now practise identifying yourself, as Love.
From love arises all these other beautiful states that you then start identifying and trying to define as Love.
But Love just is.
You cannot define it or explain it with terms and words.
It cannot be contained or limited to a way of being or a definition.
It is indefinable, indescribable (even though, that does not stop all seekers of it from trying ceaselessly to define it and quantify it) Can you be at peace knowing that it is merely to be embodied and expressed but its essence is way beyond your mind’s capacity to understand or make sense of?
A subtle theme that is showing up to be acknowledged and worked through or perhaps just be released is that of subtle bias.
As we walk the path of self realisation, with more awareness and consciousness, the first things we start to release are the more obvious conditioning and belief systems we have carried, that cause us to go into separation and judgement.
These are relatively easier to let go off as they cause huge suffering and pain within us, because of the huge amount of resistance they create.
However as we continue to grow in awareness, finally the more subtle blindspots start to come to the surface.
The subtle bias comes in when we unconsciously judge others when they don’t think like us or they show up in ways we would not.
We have to be very finely tuned in to our own energy body, in order to notice these biases, either within us or in those we are interacting with.
Even when we think we are very accepting and non judgemental, we still have these very subtle judgements. We may not say these out loud or even ” think them out loud”, but they affect our energy nevertheless.
In order to refine ourselves, to align ourselves to our highest nature….these need to be seen and let go off.
Sometimes we may pick up on others subtle biases too and if we have had a history of moulding ourselves in order to fit in to be safe, then we may unconsciously adjust our behaviour so that we are ” approved ” of by those having these subtle biases towards us.
When we notice this habitual instinct of protection, thats the time to go inwards and align again to our truest nature.
To have the courage to not be affected by another’s subtle bias and still be able to be ourselves and more importantly be able to still keep our hearts open and loving.
This does not mean that we ignore the information that is being brought to us about not only our own bias (which we have control over and therefore can release) but also that others are subtly directing towards us (which is not our business and should not be taken personally at all).
This information helps in discerning what we want to keep in our experience and what we choose to minimise, all the while not falling into the vicious cycle of going back into judgement.
Whenever this phrase is used, it is used in a derogatory sense maybe, to intimidate or to ” put someone in their place.”
However, I feel, in this phrase lies the key to liberation, if we look at it with a different perspective.
As a naturally shy child and somewhat introverted adult, I had always felt safer merging with the background.
Second guessing everything I said or did, in front of people I did not know.
If I spoke up, I felt as if there was a spotlight on me and it made me stumble through the sentences that had initially seemed quite sensible or funny in my head before they came out of my mouth.
Over the years, Ive learnt to “get over myself ” and this has made it so much easier for me to be me, not give it a second thought or go into self judgement and crippling self talk.
It has set me free to do the work I do and connect to people from a place of authenticity and honesty without needing validation or encouragement.
I rarely need to tell myself nowadays to get over myself, but its been quite the journey to get here.
“Get over yourself” to me initially, has meant, loving myself enough to not listen to the judgemental voice in my head that became louder and more judgemental as I grew up.
It has meant, finding the courage to let go of inhibitions that were never part of my true nature, to begin with. It has meant letting go of the false ideas of who I was supposed to be or ” should ” be, to really just be who I truly was, all along.
It has made it easier for me to relax into my true self and that is such sweet liberation.
It requires zero effort to be who you truly are, when you finally get over yourself.
Be you as much as you can be you. I think I heard that dialogue in the movie “Lorax” and it has stayed with me since.
When I relax into ” getting over myself” Im getting over my ego, my personality to reach inwards to my true soul self.
The magic of operating from the soul self is that the soul operates from ” oneness”
When you operate from being everything you are no longer afraid of being nothing.
“Follow your inner moonlight; don’t hide the madness.” ― Allen Ginsberg
“To shine your brightest light is to be who you truly are.” ― Roy T. Bennett
“When you are content to be simply yourself and don’t compare or compete, everyone will respect you.” ― Lao Tzu
“You were born to stand out, stop trying to fit in.” ― Roy T. Bennett
“You are you. Now, isn’t that pleasant?” ― Dr. Seuss
Over the last few days, some glimmer of understanding is waiting to birth itself.
As usual, there is a sense of wanting it to come…wanting to understand it.
Me- What is this that I need to understand…let me put it together and make sense of it all.
Inner voice – What are you feeling ?
Me – emotional and eager to understand.
IV – Then allow the feeling. Be emotional. Do you really have to understand the emotions ? Is not sitting with questions beautiful?
Can you not sit awhile with just the questions…the unknowingness of it all ? There is immense beauty in this pregnancy of not knowing all there is to know.
This mystery that never ceases unfolding and unravelling.
Is that not why you are here ? Is this not why you choose to forget dear ones ? Because you love playing with this unknowing ?
Yes, by all means, ask the questions….. but sit with them too. Do not rush into needing them answered.
Has not the divine timing of it all always astounded you ?
How you never fail to understand what you need to understand at just the precise moment you need to understand it ?
As I did yoga this morning….I was shown a record player ….I think the newer generations call them vinyls?
In my childhood, they were called Long play records I think.
These were meant to be played at different speeds, depending upon whether these were the big or small ones.
If we played them at the wrong speed, they would sound so silly.
Either too fast like Chipmunks or too slow, like sloths.
Now the pace at which we are meant to move ( slow mindful pace ) and the pace at which we actually move is so vastly different that its all creating a discordance which we cannot understand.
We have gotten so used to this fast pace that when we do allow ourselves to slow down, there is a sense of guilt or restlessness. A feeling that we are not being ” productive ” enough.
When we let all that conditioning go and move in accordance with the pace that we are internally guided to, how easy it is to be ” in the flow ” and ” at ease “. Still doing what needs to be done, but without the unnatural pace and unnecessary stress.
For the longest time I carried a belief deep in my subconscious, that life somehow balances itself out. So, for example, if I had had a childhood that did not feel good, I would then be exempt from going through a bad time as an adult or vice versa.
Ive met several people in my life’s journey who have also had similar beliefs. “LIfe has its ups, but then it also has to have the downs.” is one such belief.
This is one of the knots we need to untie and let go off.
It is our beliefs that make life show up in whichever fashion it does.
I choose to believe now that life is good ALL of the time.
That all is well, all of the time.
That the Universe has my back ALL of the time.
That no matter what is showing up, it is coming from a benevolent Universe designed to help me evolve and grow.
It is okay for me to choose ease.
It is okay for me to want to live with simplicity and joy with a heart open at all times, to love.
It is okay for me to consciously and deliberately be discerning as to what I allow into my experience.
Its a relief to let go of a belief that was rooted in conditionality and duality and one that was causing me to create a life that was sometimes ” good” and sometimes “bad”
Life is what it is.
I choose ease, joy, simplicity, love, enthusiasm, hope and faith.
Each day we are given countless opportunities to ” see ” from a more expansive perspective.
Whether its people in our lives, things that are happening to us and around us, our work and our play.
We repeat dysfunctional cycles only when we are stubborn in seeing only the way, we have always “seen”.
When we shift deliberately to a more expanded perspective, we see things we could not before. This might change the way we act and react, thus breaking old, jaded and dysfuntional cycles that no longer serve us.
My guides said to me , “Have you ever wondered why when you read the same books, you get different messages sometimes ? Its not because the book has changed….it is because YOU have. So let life do what it does, you become conscious of how you are perceiving it.”
And therein lies the doorway to creating something different.
Something more aligned to the creative, everchanging force that you are. “
Everyone in our lives has a reason they are here. Even those that we think of as our ” button pushers ” 😅.
Those that love and uplift us, those that don’t , those that inspire us and those that show us what we do not want to emulate.
Each one has value. They are merely helping us evolve. So how do we consciously choose to look at everything and everyone from a higher and more expanded perspective ?
Choose Love.
Love expands. Fear contracts. So choose love over fear.
You have a unique light that is so needed in the world. I say this so often because Im reminded of this so often.
We all need to step into our full power and embody our lights.
So we can be of service to the whole.
This is possible only when we know ourselves from the expanded perspective.
For this, we need to meditate and go within. Often.