From my inner dialogue via journalling today –

I was thinking about how in school, the science stream was considered superior to the arts. That we were subtly conditioned to respect solid results, validation etc . At the same time imagination was discouraged subtly

(”  Don’t build castles in the sky ” is one of the things I remember ) 

Dreamers, poets and intuitives were enjoyed but not taken seriously in subtle and not so subtle ways.
This led me to feeling into the times when we humans were totally present with the direct experience of life. We created, we touched, we felt , we used all our senses to directly experience the world.
Through music,
drumming, drawing, singing, dancing etc.  Expression flowed without needing to be explained. It was understood by being experienced directly.
Even now, when we sit in silence, like in meditation, reiki  or Vipassana we begin to notice how much noise words can carry. When we created language we were using our creativity to connect even more but that also created a distance from our direct experience. Our minds started to use words to interpret our direct experience. This also probably created a disconnect with our own intuitive knowing.
Not because words are wrong, but because so many of them are unconsciously used or are reactive ….… filling space rather than creating meaning.

It is not words that take away our power.
It is the way we use them.
Unaware or unconsciously used  words can scatter our energy.
Conscious words can focus it and even help us  return us to our true selves.
The mind, too, has its place. It helps us make sense of the world, ask questions, understand patterns. But when we live only in our minds  , constantly asking why, what, when, where,  how, who….. we can begin to limit our experience to what we can understand , interpret , classify and judge.
There is another way too….a softening of our edges.  Using words like
“I wonder…”
I wonder what else is possible?
I wonder what else is true? 
I wonder how beautiful this can become?
This kind of curiosity does not demand answers.  It leaves things open ended.
It creates space and allows us to get into the flow.

The flow is more fluid  more expansive… less confined by what we already think we know.
The mind does not need to disappear.
It simply needs to loosen its grip.
When it does, we start to connect to our intuition,  our knowing, our imagination …a deeper knowing that cannot always be put into words, but can be felt.
And perhaps that is the balance we are returning to.
Not choosing between logic and intuition,
but allowing both to exist in balance.

In schools nowadays imagination and creativity are once again encouraged and applauded. This is perhaps one of the reasons we are coming back into a state of balance.


Just my musings …..💜

From my journalling today…..

When our egoic identity is fairly  rigid, whatever happens, we try to maintain it, because otherwise there is a fear of dissolution.

And yet, it is only through dissolution that we come into the true state of who we are…formless, boundless, ever shifting  pure energy.
The ego  was shown to me like the skeletal system.
It holds you in a certain structure, while still allowing a degree of flexibility.
When your “beingness” begins to move beyond that structure, others may perceive it as a threat to their own rigid structures ( which feel safe because they identify themselves with their structure still )

In that moment, they can either become curious and open to what else is possible… or else they become more even more rigid in who they believe themselves to be.( just to protect who they think they are )

As you move through the heart chakra journey, your heart energy begins to cleanse and soften everything.

And slowly, gently…
you become capable of dissolution.

You begin to step into true humility…
where the ego becomes naught.
It is still there,
but no longer as strong in its identity, because you no longer give it the attention it needs to survive.
You get over yourself… your ego self…
and begin to step into oneness.

Which state, then, feels more natural?
In one, your ego keeps bumping up against another’s…
constantly wanting to be understood and accepted, validated.
In the other,  that need simply falls away.
And in that, you taste true humility.
True humility feels like freedom from any illusion about yourself.
You are no longer” this” or “that” in any rigid way.
You don’t feel the need to protect yourself….your views, your ideology, your stance.
You no longer wish to fit in or be anything other than your truth… as naked as it may be.
There is no desire to impress, to leave an impression, or to belong in a prescribed way.
It begins to feel unnecessary… even exhausting.
And that fatigue
is not a sign that you have arrived.
It is a sign that your body is communicating more clearly…
and that you are finally listening.
The fatigue comes when you try to move in the old ways of identifying with the structure that now you know you are not.

The fatigue happens when you go against what you now know.

But once you move through this phase,
there is a shift.
As though a key finally fits into a lock.
And suddenly,
there is access to boundless energy.
Because now, you are aligned with the truth of yourself
in a way you have not been before.
The key fits.
You are powered more fully by Source,
because the mind no longer controls the show.
And in that…
you are free of the limitations you once believed were you.🩵🙏

From my journalling this morning 

Q- Dearest God, what is the definition of service?

“Service is loving another as yourself, to flow with life, not against it, and to be present wherever this flow takes you with complete compassion.

Service is about your heart seeing another with complete Love and acceptance….it is a  merging with the universe, where no sense of self remains.
It is a natural part of who you are, as you remember you are one with the universe.”

Q-  What am I meant to understand about service at this phase of my life?

“There is no” you” and “them”.
No one giving…and no one is receiving.
All of it is contained within the Oneness.

When you see yourself as separate, you suffer…
because you begin to assign limitations to
what is available to you…
and therefore to what you can give.
But when you become a clear channel ( NOT a vessel)
you realise you are connected to an endless supply.
Life and creation are not separate…they are one….they move as one.

And then… there is no effort in giving.
No fear of depletion.
No identity in serving.
There is only the “flow”

When you think of “bountiful” you think of nature, don’t you?
Nature does not try to be bountiful…. it simply is.
And in that being… everything is provided.
Birth and death, all the seasons, sun and moon…..all is in perfect rhythm and balance.
And you are not separate from this.
Guru Nanakji said, “Sab Tera, Sab Tera.”
All is Yours… all is You.
In that knowing there was no sense of ownership
and so giving and receiving happened with complete  compassion, grace and clarity.
Jesus Christ was not interested in accumulation of anything in this world.
He knew he was a creator.
And in that knowing… he spread the word ….the message of LOVE, inner connection , Oneness. He was Love itself.
Buddha let go of everything from his kingdom….because he awakened to the same Truth of Oneness.
He was not renouncing the world…
he was no longer bound by it.


And so,  as awareness deepens, service is no longer an action.
It is merely being completely present with where ever  life is flowing ….moment to moment….with complete alignment, heart open, knowing you are a channel and not a vessel.
You do not serve…
You merely allow life to flow through you.”

Q- As a householder,  I still feel worry about how we will manage.

“Your worry comes from your mind that causes you to perceive you as being separate from your bountiful nature.

Your mind ironically creates thoughts of separation and suffering when in truth, you are limitless and bountiful yourself.

The coffers drain again and again not because of external circumstances…..

coffers of material, wealth, coffers of peace, coffers of love and respect in relationships, coffers of feeling safe in the world etc.

The coffers drain again and again to demonstrate to you where you still think of yourself as being separate, limited, rationed and controlled.

This phase is teaching you about faith, returning to oneness, teaching you that you are not just a part of nature….you are nature itself.

And nature is bountiful.
Never in lack…..it flows , renews and provides in ways that the mind cannot possibly understand.

This phase is teaching you to let go of falsehoods, false notions about yourself and how you fit in with the world.

If you walk through this life feeling you are not all of it, you will continue to suffer, to continue to operate at a limited, controlled capacity of your truth….your full potential.


This phase is teaching you to remember…
To truly remember…
That you are all of it…
that life is not happening to you, but through you.

To allow this rememberance to soften  control and let go of fear.
To step into the flow with faith
And you realise…
You were never meant to hold everything together.
You were only meant to stay connected.


“What if I fall?”
Oh my darling…
Let go…
and flow ….❤️

Sitting in meditation, the first thing that came to me was –  in stillness, you perceive truth.

I was told, “Be still and know I am God.”
So that was the first thing that came when I asked, “What is the theme for today?” And the theme was stillness.

Instead of being pulled outside in many different directions, it is about being still, going within, and recognizing the oneness.

The theme of oneness seems to be coming up a lot recently in the last couple of years. It has always been a subtle background theme,  but now it is coming up even more intensely…..this seeking and realizing the oneness of oneself in the ”  I Am”.
This can only come in stillness, not when you are enacting your role in the world, not when you are flapping around trying to find solace or trying to control events, circumstances, and people so that you feel safe.

It is not going to happen then.

It happens when you come back to stillness, when you realign with the knowing of oneness on the inside. When you do that, everything outside rearranges itself.

Very often though, in times that feel chaotic or difficult, we try to desperately rearrange things outside of ourselves.

Instead of doing that, finding the discipline to go still, to come back home to yourself, and to be with yourself in stillness, is incredibly helpful.

Because not only does everything that is not the truth drop away, you are also able to receive the clarity that you need to act. You receive the guidance that you need…..to know what to do in this moment.

You don’t receive this guidance from anyone outside of you, because there is oneness.

You receive this guidance from deep within.

Our very nature is creativity. We cannot help but create. However, we are either conscious & aware of what we are creating or not. That makes all the difference in what we end up creating. Whether what we create feels good to us or not……

When we create from our hearts…with acceptance and peace which allows our hearts to expand in Love…we find a courage that comes from deep within us to be authentic in our creation.

The authentic expression of our creativity …whether it is in our thoughts, our words, the choices that we make, the actions that flow from us….is what is aligned to how we were always meant to create.

When we fall asleep at the wheel, the mind takes over the creative process. This mind is driven by fear based conditioning by default.
So everything we create from there ends up in sticky gates of worry, fear, guilt, shame.

We no longer see ourselves as creators in this asleep state, but as Victims.

Victims of our relationships, our circumstances and in fact everything.
Victims do not have power.
So they are dependent on external factors to help them feel better again.

Therein starts a vicious cycle of disempowerment and hopelessness.
Until either we wake up to the power of creativity that lies hidden within us spontaneously or out of the desperation that arises from suffering as a victim.

The day we stop identifying as victims is the day we awaken.

Simi 🩵

Very often, as human beings, we have a tendency to drag our past or the worry of the future into the present moment.

And we do this so effortlessly because we are designed to move between the past, the future, and the present. Our minds can so easily travel between all three.
But because the ego, driven by fear, loves drama, loves intrigue, and loves stories, our mind keeps dragging us back to the past or pushing us into the future. And we don’t realize that when we go into these stories……past thoughts, past righteousness, past narratives of how things have gone wrong, and worries about how things can go wrong in the future……we are simply perpetuating them again and again.
This is not a new knowing….I have written about this many times in past blogposts too. However,  it feels important to bring this up again today……the idea to break through all of our past suffering by simply choosing something better for ourselves in this moment.
And yet, the human aspect of us, the mind  that governs our human selves, tends to hold on to the stories. The mind says “No, no, if I let go of my stories, then who am I?” And that can feel very scary.

A lot of people self-sabotage because they are not ready to face who they are, or realise their highest potential.
There is a quote……I’m paraphrasing……that says we are not afraid of our darkness, we are actually afraid of our light, of our highest potential.

And so we stay safe in the stories we have indulged in for so long: “He wronged me, she wronged me. This happened, that happened. This is why I am like this.”
Therefore, we don’t free ourselves from the lenses that color our judgment in the present moment. We keep looking at people, the world, and opportunities through those lenses……what happened in the past, what was done to me, what is right, what is wrong, what I want, what I don’t want……which is again duality.

Right now, as humanity, we are being offered a chance to springboard……to leap out of these stories and move into a different dimension, a different feeling space, where we can choose joy.
When I was speaking to a client, I was shown this beautiful shop. And it reminded me of something we used to do during COVID, when we would gather as a group and set intentions together. During one of those sessions, a spontaneous visualization came through……a shop.
Every morning, when you wake up, you walk into this shop. And this shop has a past aisle, a future aisle, and a present aisle.
Most of us are drawn to the past aisle……past thoughts, past stories that define who we are today, unforgiveness, resentment, and everything we have held on to.
Or we hold on to perceived shortcomings from the past and see ourselves through the lenses of parents or authority figures.  As we are now aware, so much of our subconscious programming was imprinted before the age of seven, and we keep replaying these programmes and create our reality on repeat, replay modes.
Then we go into the future aisle, which feels like possibility. But most of the time, because we are carrying the past with us, it colors the future as well. We look at the future through the lenses of the past, and we see limitations.
So we don’t even look at certain sections of the future, because we believe they are not possible for us.
For example, if I have been told that I’m not good at sewing or embroidery, I may never even look in that direction. I will look at everything else, but I will believe that I am not capable of that. Similarly, someone who has been told they are not good at math may never explore that path.
So the future aisles don’t open up……not because they don’t exist, but because our minds are closed to them.
Now, when we walk into the present aisle, with the awareness that the mind is like a little child holding our hand, tugging us toward the past or the future……
We remember……we are not that child. We are the soul. We are the higher self.
And instead of being pulled, we gently say, “Let’s just explore this aisle.”

In the present moment aisle, right in front of you, you will find peace, mindfulness, presence, joy, inspiration, expansion, inclusivity, kindness, awareness, bliss, breathing, slowing down, resting, loving, feeling loved, emotional regulation, and nervous system balance.

All of this is available to you……as long as you are not focused on the stories of the past or the worries of the future.
And when you make the choice to come into the present moment aisle again and again, you begin to say, “Tomorrow, I’ll see about tomorrow. Maybe I’ll go to the past or future aisle then. That’s okay. No judgment. But today……what do I want to choose for myself?”
And when we do this consistently, it becomes a habit to remain in the present moment aisle.
And something beautiful happens.
The future aisles begin to open up in ways we were not aware of, because we are no longer choosing through the lens of the past.
And the past, too, begins to soften. It’s as though the shelves start clearing themselves. The stories loosen their hold on you.
So when you revisit the past occasionally, you notice, “Oh, this is interesting. I used to see it this way. I used to feel so upset about this. Why was I so upset? I’m so glad I’m free of that story.”
And that is when we have not only opened up the future to many new possibilities, but we have also released the hold of the past.
Being in the present moment becomes pleasurable. It becomes natural.
Because we begin to realize that the future is being created while we are walking through the present aisle.
Sometimes, concepts like this are hard to understand, but when we see it as a visualization, it becomes easier.
So instead of being pulled by the child into the past or the future, we can gently hold its hand and say, “Let’s see what’s here today. Maybe there’s something beautiful for us here. Maybe we can feel joy today. Maybe we can just have a picnic in the present aisle.”
And from here, we create the future.
It’s like magic.
I wanted to share this today, and I hope it reaches whoever it needs to.
It reached me too. The last few days I have felt a heaviness……perhaps my own, perhaps collective……and I needed to return to the present aisle today.
I hope it helps someone out there as well.
Sending you much, much love, and wishing you a wonderful, peaceful, joyful, inspired day.


Simi

To see a persons highest potential is not wrong…nor is it a waste of your time or energy. It merely means you are operating from a higher frequency and can see what is possible for them.
In fact whenever you are in communion with them and you are able to see their highest potential you are able to hold space for them to step into this potential. The choice to do so or not is completely upto them of course. As it always is.
Now here is the catch …if you are shaky in your own groundedness …then this holding of space can drain you out and make you feel you ” wasted precious life force energy ” in this connection …when you could’ve spent that energy on someone who was similiar to your frequency.
So the idea is not to filter out those that do not match your frequency….it is to train yourself enough to stay in your centered frequency no matter what.

Another thing to always remember gently is that, as human beings, we are always evolving.

What we embody today is not always who we were. A lot of people extended us grace….gave us the benefit of doubt when we perhaps needed it.
Maybe others held space for us and reflected to us, in their steadfast love or compassion a higher potential that we eventually stepped into.

Messages from my dream state

1. For the empaths, creatives, sensitives , intuitives it seems to be time to step out of hiding into more visibility. This visibility is now required. It is not to do with fame or fortune or any of the old and outdated incentives of the world. It is more to do with your individual natural gifts needed now more visibly in the collective to help this wave of change that is underway.
2. There are older paradigms of ‘family’ that you are perhaps questioning or seeing differently. Feeling restrained, constrained or not understood. Or no longer understanding your “original” families . This restlessness you feel is not the sign to break away….. but to merge your older limits ( family ) to your newer family ( which is the whole world actually ). As you awaken to who you truly are you realise the interconnectedness of all beings and therefore you might feel more in tune with your ‘soul tribes ‘ rather than the families you were born into ( especially if they are still in older paradigms of fear etc ) but this is not a call to leave them behind. There is no freedom in that. It is about merging the old with compassion and gentleness into the new.
3. You are never alone as you do all of the above. There are fierce guardians behind the scenes who are protecting you as you navigate the changes.
4. Awakening cannot be forced. Healing cannot be forced. All of this happens as naturally and gently as a bud blooming into a flower…petals unfolding in the magical care of the Sun and the moon ( through periods of light and dark in your life). Be patient and trust your timing. It is divinely ordained
5. Nurture your inner child…your inate innocence, playfulness and joy. It is essential to keep this alive. It reminds you the most ,of your souls true essence.
6. You no longer need external validation. You carry your own inner knowing. And finally this beautiful message

The universe is always abundantly blessing us with life’s greatest blessings which remain so subtle that we hardly notice them…. these are often invisible, gentle and subtle like secret notes of love tucked into your daily lives.

Its almost as if the universe delights in playing secret Santa. 🤭☺️

I have  never felt like I fit in this world.
There are many things I enjoy about it and many that I don’t. But I have always  felt as if Im on the outside, looking in.
For brief intervals, I formed a world in which I belonged.
That too felt temperary and fragile.
Who am I ? What am I ?
Does everyone feel this way ? Does everyone feel they do not fit in ? Or fit ?

A lot of my life has gone by, trying to feel that sense of belonging.
Now I don’t try to do that anymore.

Im being true to what I feel.

Like I read just yesterday….only illusions fall apart when you are not trying to hold things together. What remains is what is ‘ real’.
I feel a sense of “in between- ness”….. Like Ive let go of trying to hold ‘it’ together ….whatever that ‘it’ might be.

Im still on the outside, looking in….. but, it is no longer uncomfortable.

There is a familiarity with the feeling.
A feeling that, if this is how it feels right now, then it is how it is meant to feel. When it needs to feel different, it will.

Maybe I belong on the fringes.

Or maybe these apparent ‘fringes’ are moments into which I can completely relax and immerse?

Maybe the immersion will carry me back to me. Where I feel everything….where there is nothing at all outside of me.

Where I fit completely.

Simi

Shifting into a mutilinear perspective

Once you begin to experience the liberation that comes with transcending duality, you naturally want to keep returning to that state. The peace, calm and clarity it brings become a compass, guiding the  choices you make, not through effort, but through embodied knowing.

While this shift often unfolds slowly over time, the important factor that unlocks it, is awareness.

Most people remain caught in the matrix ( of duality ) simply because they don’t realize that anything else is possible. Our conditioning, within the matrix of right /wrong, success / failure, good / bad, is so deeply ingrained that we respond on autopilot, unaware that we are choosing from a limited perspective.

But once we realize this, a gentle yet powerful shift begins.

We start to expand our consciousness beyond linear thinking and into a multilinear awareness, one that sees the infinite possibilities that are available in every moment.

This expansion naturally softens our urge to choose this over that. Instead of grasping or resisting, we begin to stay centered. We witness rather than react. We discern rather than judge. Even what once seemed painful or imbalanced is seen in a new light, as an experience designed to support our evolution.

With this awareness, we are no longer trapped by polarity. We are liberated by presence.