I was born to love. I was born to give that love unconditionally. I was also born to receive that love unconditionally.
I started out by giving and receiving it fully…but as I grew, I also started noticing, how sometimes, the love given to me came with certain ,very subtle conditions.
As an adult, I realise , that that was me confusing love with approval or acceptance. True love …in all of its forms , is unconditional. It does not diminish with time , is not affected by moods, and definitely has no conditions attached to it. I came to associate ‘ love ‘ with hurt , with let downs, with pain.
I put up guards around my heart and became very ,very careful with who I allowed in and more importantly, who I gave my love to ,without worrying about how they could use it to hurt me. That was( ironically) me, putting so many conditions to that very love that I was born to give and receive freely.

As I grew in awareness, I slowly and painfully understood the difference between my limited , fearful concept of love and the real magnificient , unbridled , huge and humbling power that is the real deal.

I often wondered ,why it was so much easier for me to express my love and appreciation for people I barely knew than for those that were closest to me. Perhaps the closer you are , the more the expectations …the more the conditions.

In my journey to my centre, to my authentic self…I have slowly shed my expectations and my conditions.
I started loving me ,without needing anything to be changed, to be improved upon.
I started wholeheartedly loving me.

And then the miracle happened.

I was free now, to love others and be who I was born to be.
That light of love, shining in someone elses dark hour…carrying them through and then quietly slipping away as they learnt to find their own light of love within them.
Knowing that their lights had shone upon me too , with no conditions attached. That inadvertently , I was receiving as much love as I was giving away so freely …that beautiful love with no conditions attached 💕



Let the world be
YOU dance

You dance
To the music of your soul
To the beats, that only you can match steps with
To the rhythm that only you
Can hold

You dance to that uniquesness
With surrender and with Love
With Absolute faith
In the Almighty Above.

Your dance is as wonderful
As delightful
As you are
Nothing needs to change
For you were made to shine,

For if you danced to music,
That wasn’t your very own
Your heart would get heavy
And your limbs would turn to stone

Dance like a feather
Fly, twirl and spin
Let your heart guide you
To the music within…..

You be you
And let the whole world be
Each one has their own music
As they soon, shall see…..

In the meanwhile
You need not wait

Let the world be……..

Where do you dwell ?

We must have the courage to go looking for what I refer to the Horcruxes of our lives ( Harry Potter reference….horcruxes here standing for the memories of our suffering in the past), but having retrieved them and having had a good look at them, we must not hang around in their dark energy for too long.

The longer we do, the more we get sucked back in.

The light is the destination and must be a part of the journey too.
Its a myth that we need to spend all our time in the dark to learn about ourselves.
Suffering is a catalyst ….exploring why, when, how we suffered is important yes.
However, staying there for too long, sucks the hope, love and joy right out of us.

It gets us used to the darkness once again.

It is counterproductive to the healing.
To the joy.

So look at it yes, just don’t buy into it all over again.

Messages ….

My channeling today

I was curious and asked if we only astral project in the night ?

The answer that came was that we can astral project at will.

Day or night. It needs training of the intellect but we involuntarily do so sometimes during meditation or deep sessions of Reiki.

Question… So if there are people who function best and sort of come ” alive ” more at night and are slower to function in the morning , then are they losing out on communication with their guides and higher self and integrating their day and learnings and getting access to source energy ?

Answer- you yourself know that a lot of your interactions with source energy and all its various forms ( spirit guides etc ) have happened during the day and have made more sense to you as you have been in the optimum state between wakefullness and sleep to receive this information.
What makes you feel that communication and integration only happens at night when there is no separation at all …ever?

You are always in communication with the spiritual realm…always.
People who were greatly aware of the spiritual resources available to them have deliberately meditated or gone into deep breathing (an acute state of presence and awareness) or self hypnosis and in some cases even deliberately taken naps to access these resources which seem unavailable to them in the awake state ( ego mind projections and conditioning )

Ques – so is it really so bad if a person cannot sleep well at night and struggles to conform to normal rhythms ? Why was it designed like this …day and night ?

Response – it depends on each ones beliefs around this. If they believe that a bad nights sleep disrupts their productivity and functionality then it is true for them. There are those who believe they only need a few hours of sleep in a day to restore their energy. So that is true of them.
Like you say ” each one to his own” …it is truly your beliefs/ thoughts around anything that creates your unique reality.

Q – So as practioners is it wrong for us to stress on the importance of the nights sleep ?

Response- the only question is are you instilling fear if they break away from the “norm” of sleeping a certain number of hours at certain accepted timings ? If so then how does fear feel ? As someone who is able to influence or guide with your words…it is preferable to not project fear into any message you feel inspired to give. As ” healers ” you are meant to bring light and Love to any situation thus resolving the fear in it. That is your ONLY job if you must think of it like that. So adding fear in the implication of what you say takes away the healing power.
The only healing that truly happens is within the person through his or her own will. The absence of fear is crucial to coming into balance. So as someone who is holding space, ask yourself which is the best way you can bring love and light into any situation.

Q – so why were day and night created and why is it that there are different timezones? Why is not everyone in the same time zone and infact in one big country ?

A- you are like a dog with a bone ! Why is it that any of this was created ? Ask yourself that. Yes human body’s were created to function optimally under certain circumsances etc but you will know “humans” who have defied any of the ” rules” that have been generally applied to all and done things that you did not believe were humanly possible. That is when you say ,” The human ‘ spirit ‘ is so strong etc etc”. There is a recognition that there is truly no limit to what you are capable of achieving once you yourself overcome the barriers and limitations in your own mind and heart.
As to why there are different time zones and different anything…..imagine a school with students of all ages and experience all together in one class. What would be achieved ? How would you begin to learn or grow ? In essence each family, society, religion , culture, city ,culture….any unit of humanity is like a mini school with a mix like this thrown in. With limited understanding and consciousness, these are gentler ways of growing.
Which is why you will observe that those souls that are older souls no longer are able to feel as if they belong to these smaller perceived units…as their awareness grows, there understanding and expansiveness also grows till they truly only think of humanity as a collective consciousness. The younger the soul, the more barriers to work through. A baby is safer in a cot and as it grows a bed is fine …then even under the stars with no bed is fine.
Your energy rejects some ” spiritual teachers” teachings on how to make sure clients come back to you….because your energy recognises the hint of manipulating through fear and conditionality.
Even if you are a great teacher, as a soul who understands expansiveness and true healing, you will encourage people to find their own feet because you know they can.
They do not need you to be their teacher / guide / healer. The best teachers sow seeds , light the way and continue this work with others…not seek to hold hands and lead others the whole way increasing dependency.

End of message

Power vs Freedom

Power and control have seduced humans over and over again in different disguises, whether its power over others or ourselves.

When our consciousness expands enough to KNOW that true power is attained ONLY when we can turn away from Power easily, then we can finally be at peace and harmony within ourselves and with all of creation.


Each day has a different rhythm to it. A different energy that it brings forth. Respond to that rhythm.

Do not try and control it……or shift it or make it bend to you. That will tire you.
Instead flow with it. Play with what you are given.

Hold it lightly and breathe with it.

Breathing with it, tune into it.

Tuning into it, dance with it.

Leave yesterday behind.

Do not bring it forward into this day.

Yes, yesterday may have be mighty fine…..but today is a new rhythm that needs a new dance.

Dancing today like you did yesterday, might not match the song that is being played today.

Yes you can force the day to change its rhythm…yes you can impose your free will definitely, but then it is no longer subtle and beautiful…….this dance between you……it is no longer magic.

Upcycle or Recycle…what am I choosing to do ?

In each lifetime, and indeed at every moment within each lifetime, we get the opportunity to upcycle our experience by making more conscious decisions and raising our vibrations.

However getting the opportunity does not necessarily equate to us making those decisions.

We can easily slip back into what feels familiar, even if it is not allowing us to evolve or grow and even if it is causing us huge suffering.
We choose to remain in this victim mode either because it is easier to blame than to take creative control over our own lives and experiences or we are conditioned to and seduced by fear, allowing it to take over our lives.

We either upcycle or recycle……..its our choice and we alone are responsible for what we are choosing

The Spiritual Closet

What will people say ?

What will people think ?

If I express my truth…….If I feel differently from others….will they shun me ….not validate me…..not accept me ?
Will I be rejected, made fun of, or isolated ?

Actually to start with, am I even supposed to have my own truth that is so different from everyone else’s ?

If I state I believe in magic, in miracles, in love, in children, in hope, in joy, in happy endings, in fairies, in angels and oh my goodness in God, in a very real way that others do not …..what then ?
Is it politically correct to say out loud that I believe that I have God inside of me and that everyone I meet is an aspect of the same God ?

When I know that so many feel safer when they can confine the concept of God to a statue, a building , a holy place or a shrine.
That the idea of God being real……being in our lives actively as everyone and everything we meet is shockingly bold and ” irreverent” and ” nonsensical”
That most are willing to lay prostrate in front of statues made by men or follow Gurus dilligently, refusing to establish a direct relationship with their own divinity.

Fear of it all, keeps us hidden in closets of our own making.
Where we dare not express what truly feels right to express, in our hearts.

Where we let our heads rule and hearts suffer in silence.

Where what people say control what we do or don’t do.

In the spiritual closet…….there is an unspoken agreement to talk about everything that is “safe” …that will elicit an equally ” safe ” response.

This dichotomy puzzles me and frustrates me, until I realise that I was in the same closet up until just a little while ago.

Where I was trying so hard to contain myself in there…trying to fit in places I was never meant to fit in.

The freedom of allowing myself to grow out of that closet….the freedom of not caring about the thought processes of those that are still stuck inside, instead feeling love and compassion for them.

That frees me from the frustration and the judgement.

That allows me to be me and allows them to be who they allow themselves to be.

To know that even the closet is only a perception and a figment of the imagination.

That the only thing that is “real”is inconfinable.

“Masters” then and now

Earlier the difference was that so many masters were way ahead of mostly a collective that was still in its infancy.

So the way was, to lead dramatically….even though this perhaps was not a thought out intention.

The masters were merely living THEIR truth.

The masses however would only follow them to the limits that their fear allowed them to.

There was so much disparity between what they witnessed and what they understood that this disparity caused them to attempt to elevate the masters and put them on a pedestal.

By doing so they felt placated as they created enough distance between the masters truth and their own, that they did not need to step out of their comfort zones and do the uncomfortable work of digging within.

Indeed they cannot be blamed because as young souls, fear dominated and won. 

After all, its so much easier to be a follower than to step out of conformity and become responsible for ones own reality.

The reason things are vastly different now, is because, as a collective, souls are no longer AS held by fear, having recycled through various lifetimes ( even if they are completely unaware of this concept)

Now those that are awake and are what we consider masters , are also those that are promoting a deeper awareness by not giving up on being human. They live seemingly  ordinary lives and embody their divinity into their humanity so completely that it seems seamless.

They embody qualities of love , compassion , empathy , understanding, and are diligent in their spiritual work. They show through their beautiful flaws, how wonderfully easy it is to embody both our divinity  and our humanity.

Messages from within

A few things ……

  1. Only you can love yourself in the way you want to truly be loved. 💜
  2. You are NOT alone and never were. Source / your guardian angel and your spirit guides have always been with you and are indeed a part of you.
    In opening up your senses to the non physical mighty aspect of yourself, you will never feel alone on this journey.
  3. You have CHOSEN to come here…it is a wonderful opportunity. Seek but also stay grounded in the experience because it is the experience you came here for.
    Going back to source in a complete way is INEVITABLE.
    Finding what you are seeking is INEVITABLE.
    The destination is GUARANTEED.
    So why not enjoy the ride ?
  4. As you reach a clearer vibrational frequency you will also attract your NEW tribe to you.
    Those that will be on this new frequency. And you will never stay stagnant in only this frequency.
    Everytime you shift, there will be a phase where you might find yourself faltering, doubting, feeling alone, suddenly finding yourself having to face yourself in uncomfortable ways all over again just when you were getting comfortable.
    This phase is a natural progression so do not panic.
    Stay in alignment or keep stepping back into alignment to your new normal.
    Then either your old tribe will step their game up to be with you …or a new tribe will find you.
    You just focus on remaining in the flow.
  5. If you keep your loving steadfast focus on Source, you will always be held and you will always KNOW you are held.

We came here, as individuated expressions of source and the deep longing we feel inside is the longing to be back to feeling connected as we were….as we feel the illusion of separation.

This then translates into a longing for others because we are unconscious to the real longing within.
That to be united with source.

Not with our partners, lovers ,children, parents ,family and friends.
They are all a reflection of Source…indeed they are source in all different forms and therefore they are you in different forms.

The separation is only an illusion..it is not real. So the suffering need not be…….remind yourself again and again of this one truth and you will remain calm and in bliss.
In Love.
In Joy..

” From Alsa with Love “

Lets feel ALL of our feelings and let them find expression.

Pain has its own unique beauty as does joy.

In allowing ourselves to feel into both pain and joy, not denying either, we are alive.

Truly alive.

Suffering arises when we resist what is naturally coming up.

If pain comes, let it wash over you, washing you clean, taking away the debris that was hidden in dark corners. The rubbish that snuck in and stayed hidden. That accumulated.

And when joy peeks in , like sunlight from behind a curtain, throw open that curtain and that window and let it warm your heart, melting away all the guards around it, seeping into all the crevices and lighting you up from the inside so you glow….glow like a firefly.