I was born to love. I was born to give that love unconditionally. I was also born to receive that love unconditionally.
I started out by giving and receiving it fully…but as I grew, I also started noticing, how sometimes, the love given to me came with certain ,very subtle conditions.
As an adult, I realise , that that was me confusing love with approval or acceptance. True love …in all of its forms , is unconditional. It does not diminish with time , is not affected by moods, and definitely has no conditions attached to it. I came to associate ‘ love ‘ with hurt , with let downs, with pain.
I put up guards around my heart and became very ,very careful with who I allowed in and more importantly, who I gave my love to ,without worrying about how they could use it to hurt me. That was( ironically) me, putting so many conditions to that very love that I was born to give and receive freely.

As I grew in awareness, I slowly and painfully understood the difference between my limited , fearful concept of love and the real magnificient , unbridled , huge and humbling power that is the real deal.

I often wondered ,why it was so much easier for me to express my love and appreciation for people I barely knew than for those that were closest to me. Perhaps the closer you are , the more the expectations …the more the conditions.

In my journey to my centre, to my authentic self…I have slowly shed my expectations and my conditions.
I started loving me ,without needing anything to be changed, to be improved upon.
I started wholeheartedly loving me.

And then the miracle happened.

I was free now, to love others and be who I was born to be.
That light of love, shining in someone elses dark hour…carrying them through and then quietly slipping away as they learnt to find their own light of love within them.
Knowing that their lights had shone upon me too , with no conditions attached. That inadvertently , I was receiving as much love as I was giving away so freely …that beautiful love with no conditions attached 💕



Each one carries their wounds differently.

Some are carried with neon signs so they cannot be missed , some deeply hidden inside, but causing the same pain.
Some like to talk about them incessantly and some not at all. Some look for healing , some keep their wounds fresh because they are not yet ready to let go of them.

Even the wounds we carry are not the same.
Some are open wounds, some merely scars.
Some many, some few.

The point is we all do.

How we treat them, what we do with them, whether we learn from them (or not), how we choose(or not) to heal them, is different but make no mistake, we all have wounds and we carry them differently.

Once we are sure of this, we must tend to our own paths whilst being kind to all those we cross paths with.


Every rejection is an invitation to come home to yourself …..to love yourself more fiercely, to give yourself the validation you are looking for, outside of you.

Every rejection is a push to hunt for that unending magical stream of joy that runs inside of you and is unaffected by external elements. 

Every rejection ultimately is a huge opportunity to learn to completely accept yourself.

And then finally the realisation comes that that was the only acceptance that was ever needed.


Is Disillusionment necessary on this path of growth, expansion and clarity?

It depends on what you are implying when you use the term disillusionment.
Disillusionment merely means a breaking of the illusion and as such it is definitely an intrinsic part of this process.

Afterall, this IS an illusion, isn’t it ?

When we come into a human incarnation, we have , what is called an egoic consciousness or awareness that propels us and anchors us firmly into this illusion through our egoic desires.
As we go along however , we find that these do not quench that ultimate thirst of knowing/ being/ understanding it all.

That can only come through the shattering of the illusion because IT ( the ultimate knowing/ being) is not a part of this illusion.  IT exists beyond this illusion and nothing here can satisfy it.

I have been equating disillusionment to suffering, whereas now I see that they are two separate things.
The ‘ disillusionment’ is inevitable, but the suffering is not. It is dependent on the amount of attachment to the illusion.
If the attachment is deeper then the suffering is more.
That is why the sages preach loving detachment.

Letting go in faith.


Surrendering in faith, love , joy , hope…..not in fear.

A continuation of The ultimate connection

Many souls at this stage choose to not become parents so they can focus on the final stretch. However when they do choose to become parents, they might seem to others to be disconnected somewhat and not as intensely involved in their childrens lives. To youger souls in the throes of their missions of intense connection, this seems strange and out of their understanding.
Yet the older souls are not affected by the outside perceptions / limitations and societal norms. They are well aware , that as fragile or helpless they appear, their children are actually mighty and divine souls themselves upon their own unique journeys independent of their parents or siblings.
They recognise the importance of that independent journey and honour and acknowledge it by focussing on their own expansion and experience.
Children who choose to come to such souls also have , in most cases evolved to a point that is perfect for this level of non interference in their journeys. In fact some very evolved souls on missions of increasing levels of awareness and consciousness, come through to a parent soul like this so that the parent soul naturally support their missions.
In some cases of course there are exceptions …and in those cases the souls who have much to learn, come through as children to these souls to teach them any final lessons of loving acceptance etc that they might need to fine tune. They in turn, get to learn their own lessons through the loving acceptance / detachment that their parent soul offer


I got a vivid visual message today …
I saw Dr Wayne Dyer standing in a very bright place with a table of books stacked in front of him and somehow I knew that the title of those books was significant.
He was smiling reassuringly
I could only see one title very very clearly.
It said ” BELONG TO ME “
I was confused at the time.
Then I felt that even though Dr Dyer was the author ( in my vision) , the title was not referring to him but to God
Belong to God
I felt vaguely, that the message was about shifting the focus from humans who are imperfect and who are conditional to that which is perfect and totally unconditional.
It felt as if to focus on belonging to God would take away any hurt and would in fact be a relationship that would elevate
Like Rumi , Like Shams of Tabriz, like Meera etc
Belonging to God….and therefore nothing here, can hurt anymore.

Imagine the love, support, and vibration of that connection.

A lot of souls will continue to choose connection as a primary or secondary mission as it propels them into relationships….it is the egoic anchor into this illusion. The need to have that connection is what tethers the soul firmly into this illusion. And therefore the immersive experiences which cannot happen without this tethering. If a soul does not have this deep need for connection through their mission, it will very easily be able to find its way back to source because that is a great pull ingrained inside of it.
However connection and the need for relationships with others , makes the soul engage with other souls and in doing so learns many, many in fact most of its life lessons / themes.
It is in the interactions that one is almost forced to learn. The image comes of a heavy weight that keeps an object under water where it experiences the currents and everything else under the water. The moment the anchor is released however, its natural inclination is to bob up to the surface.
Thus many old souls will be found quite happy to be ” alone” and yet will not feel alone. The pull towards the real union is so profound and the sensing of the ultimate love so uplifting and joyous, that relationships / connections with other souls pale in comparision.
However the love does not go away.
In fact it increases.

The need for close intimate relationships is replaced by this overwhelming love felt for all.
As one steps more and more in the direction of the coming into wholeness and completion , more and more of God’s love and light shines through this person and spills on to others.

This is why they call it enlightenment.

The soul getting rid of everything that held it in darkness …moving towards lightness and being light.


“I love you.”
I love you, but that has not much to do with you , in fact nothing to do with you and everything to do with what is inside me.
I love me and I fill myself up with that love.
When I do so, it automatically overwhelms me with love for you. I may not even know you well. I may not know the parts of you that you yourself have disowned or are ashamed of. Even if I did, they would not stop this love from flowing towards you as this love has nothing to do with you and everything to do with what is bubbling up in exhileration from inside of me.

This love that I feel for you has no conditions.
It cannot.
The source of this love is not me….it comes from an unending stream that comes from deep inside of me and connects us all , only if we would step out of the way to allow it in.
You have this magical stream inside of you too. Whether you choose to let it wash over you and drown you in its bliss, or stay on the outside questioning its very existence, is a choice you get to make.

Either ways, I still love you. ”

-This has been percolating for a few days as I notice the way the love just pours out.

I feel enveloped in it all the time. So cannot help but project it outwards with no holds barred. Whether its family , friends or clients…or anyone
I also notice how people do not know how to react to it . It makes me smile.
I feel Ive been there…questioning motives…looking for hidden agendas🤣😅
But most people blossom under its onslaught
That blossoming , that opening up to love…is so very beautiful to observe.
And yet, thats not why it comes.

It just does…


The universe is always giving me feedback on my predominant thoughts.

If I see unpleasantness and drama around me most of the time, then the source is me.

If I see joy and gratitude , the source is me.

If I see sickness and ill health , the source is me.

If I see compassion and kindness, the source is me .

If I see unfairness and judgement, the source is me.

If I see love and magic , the source is me.

Whatever I focus upon, I give energy to and therefore bring more of, into my life. 

Back and Forth….it matters not

“It is a result of all our past decisions and actions that we are all individually here in the particular circumstances that we are.
Yes there is an onward progression ( mostly) in the sense that the soul is growing and expanding. It can’t help but do so, in fact. However that does not mean that it has to progressively be placed on only more abundant backgrounds or in more powerful roles. That is the egoic way of looking at it.
The soul never decides its incarnations, based on these things. It focusses on growth and experiences that will enrich its soul and those experiences can very well be experienced as a beggar on the streets and do not require a soul to be born into wealth and comfort.
In fact, some souls choose “discomfort” again as old souls, to see how they grow again at a deeper level when faced with the same cut throat competition for perceived limitations that they once faced as young souls.
Like a child who goes back into the same junior class to see if he indeed knows and is sure footed with its basic sums. There is a new enjoyment and experience to be had with the same experiences at times, as the soul has grown and experiences these things differently even as the soul perceives them completely differently.
The attachment to material desires is less and therefore the fear is considerably less, so the soul perceives what it did not before.
So it is not necessary that the soul progresses in terms of human advancement as it advances spiritually. There are souls who can go right back to where they began, if they feel they need the same circumstances to try again …….remember, time is a linear concept only for you.

It is possible for a soul to go back to any age simultaneously as this experience of the earth at this stage is happening. Whether its early ages or the millenium….it is only a concept of consciousness and consciousness can go wherever it feels fits its growth perfectly.”

The knowing came that we can actually go back to being anything we want to be, based on what we want to experience.
Increasing levels of wealth , comfort and power are not taken into consideration unless they serve our purpose to act as the perfect condition to grow in experience. They serve as being backgrounds to our growth so almost like actors choose their backdrops or costumes.
As souls these things matter to us , not at all.
So some souls that feel so ahead of their times , may indeed have experienced being ahead of their times in certain lifetimes.
Einstein , Nostradamus….such souls may have experienced life in what we perceive to be the later stages of the earth and then been born ” back in time ” because they wanted to experience certain life themes that would come from such a circumstance of them having advanced inner knowing. They might also be inspired to help be catalysts of progress and advancement for a huge number of younger souls or the younger soul world.

Back and forth or forth and back.
It matters not.

In whatever we decide to do, we affect the fabric of the universal consciousness as it is not separate from ours.


When we as parents, extend our love and approval to our kids only when they bring out their best behaviour or their most socially acceptable behaviour and reprimand them or show them we are disappointed in them when they behave in a way that is not acceptable to us, we do them a great disservice. Parents who exclusively paint a picture of their children of being exclusively great at everything, with an underlying urge to reinforce the same ” good ” side of their kids forget that we as human beings, have a whole range of feelings / emotions. When only certain feelings are acknowledged/ responded to / celebrated/  honored we give our impressionable young children the message that certain feelings are ” no good” and cannot be shown.

We teach them, through our conditionality,  that certain things that they are and feel are not acceptable to us and by extension, the world. That they are wrong in feeling or being a certain way.

So when your child DOES feel these things, as they inevitably will, they try and suppress these feelings or instinctive ways of being …because they feel guilty or ashamed.

Often this shows up as dysfunctional patterns of passive aggressiveness, anxiety , disempowerment , manipulation,   baby talk , victimization and other unhealthy expressions of their pent up emotions.

Working our way backwards, what must we do?

Trust the innate wisdom that is present in all of us, including our children. Tune in to our own guidance and drown out the outside noise. Then gently guide your kids to their own inner guidance whilst keeping them centred and safe.
Showing them through our own example that it is ok to not feel ok and its ok to feel all sorts of emotions. Teach them how to navigate life, using the emotions that come up , as important guiding nudges in the direction most suited to them individually.
That is the best thing we can do for them. It is the highest form of Love.


Its strange how Im confronted with a different aspect of learning about boundaries with my kittens.

Cats do not heed commands , requests , pleas ….any of it 🤣
Any cat person will tell you that the worst possible thing you can do is shout at or frighten your cats in order to discipline them. It is , in fact , the best way to alienate them for life.
So the usual accepted methods using fear as a tool do not work. In fact , they completely backfire on us.

Our cats have personalities…one is scared of everything and the other is slightly bolder and curious. What they both respond to, is a kind, calm and loving tone.
We are told by experienced “cat humans”( those who love cats and understand them😄), that we cannot force our cats to adapt quicker or feel at home with us any quicker than they are ready to do so. Some cats take a year! The only thing we can consistently do is give them a safe, loving environment where they can experience consistent kindness and love ( consistent being the operative word )

It is not as if cats do not display undesirable behaviour….most days when I forget to turn my tissue boxes over, I find tissues torn to shreds all over the living room or the sofas.

My beautiful leather chairs get scratched when they feel the need to scratch inspite of the scratching toys we have got them. Once when we were trying to train them into using the new litter box and had taken away the old one suddenly , Artemis would pee on Kians chair or her own bed. We had to bring back the old litter box , keep it side by side with the new one and had to patiently wait till they learnt how to be comfy with the bigger one.

All this would have left me infuriated and frustrated even upto a year ago. Now strangely, I feel that they are here to truly teach me the power of unconditional love and the letting go of all ( things and ideas )that I held onto so dearly.
My mother is getting upset about my chairs getting scratched from all the way in Delhi( because she knows how fondly I selected them and they are her favourite chairs to sit on when she is here with us) , and all I can feel is amused and somewhat detached, all the while feeling intense love for them.

I am learning from this experience , how to extend this unconditionality to my relationships with my children and indeed everyone.

Fear has its place…when souls are yet driven by it and are motivated by it. To be motivated by and driven by love…has a different feel to it.

A sense of liberation.