There is a difference between conventional wisdom and true wisdom.
The kind of ‘ wisdom’ that is handed to you, by society, parents, teachers , religions etc sometimes makes you uncomfortable deep within.

Then that is not for you.

The wisdom that reasonates deep within…that you feel like you always knew this and now recognise it …is the one that is for you.
So nothing needs to ever be conventional.

For example …conventional wisdom might require you to be expressing yourself with animosity or judgement or hate towards ‘ enemies ‘.
Your source / God consciousness knows there is no such thing.
So it would be uncomfortable doing that.
It will feel better when you act from a place of love without conditions.
Tune in to what ‘feels’ right .

Only then are you on the right path. If it ‘ feels ‘ wrong ..then its not for you.



I am tired of being a turtle.

Carrying everyone I love on my back.
Tired of being the peace maker …being diplomatic and smoothing feathers that are forever in the danger of being ruffled.
Tired of being a soldier….stepping gently through a minefield…being on guard all the time….to keep the peace that is so precious to me.

I love peace …I love quiet…I love the freedom to be me.
But I put all that on a waiting list. For those that I love.
No one asked me to do this. Not one of them put it into words. Yet here I am believing its my duty and feeling awful guilt if I don’t step up.
Im done. Im done longing for that quiet forest. Done yearning for that cool sea breeze. Done fighting to protect people who don’t have the faintest clue Im fighting for them. Done carrying burdens that are better off being put on the sidewalk. Done pausing my life. Im done.

Part 2 ” The puppeteer “

I am a home maker. I manage my family. Ummm I think I do rather well. I behave in a certain way so I get the desired outcomes from them. I hold each one’s string in my hand. It is after all , for their own good. I keep them away from trouble. I know what trouble is , I know whats best for them. Better than they do. What do they know? They are merely puppets. I mould them , I take care of them , I make sure they are never hurt. Why ? Well because I love them , don’ t I ?

My life is perfect.
So what if I have to watch not only each step they take ( to avoid them making mistakes of course , duh ! ) but also watch my own .

Because you see, it is a huge responsibility to manage them.
I cannot take a step without analyzing what it shall trigger in them. After all if I have the guts to be myself ..it might give them ideas…they might want to get some guts themselves. ( Shudder )

They are all perfect… as is my life. We all say what we should, we never step out of line.

I have a list of behaviours or key words to use in different situations. I know the responses each elicits. I use psychology , reverse or otherwise.

It works.

If it does’nt ,well, being sarcastic, or autocratic is always something I can fall back on. Worse scenario ever, well, I can always squeeze out some tears.

Part 3 ( Introspective )

What if ,one day, I acted on a crazy impulse and left it all behind ….and faced the world just as I am ..no layers …no masks…no pretense…just me…..raw …..damaged, but purely me ?

I think the day I did that , my soul would finally be set free..to love ,to enthuse , to be miserable , be joyous …to be fully and completely what ever I needed to be in that moment.

I think that day I would finally know what it is to breathe.

Part 4 ( Liberated )

I throw open the doors and windows of my home to let the sunshine in and the shadows out. To let whatever comes in freely and go out freely…..no restrictions, no control , no worrying, no tug of wars.

I give myself the freedom to be me…whatever is me ,in the moment….and my loved ones the freedom to be them , whatever they are, in the moment.
Ah to finally breathe…to experience the unconditionality of it all. The love , the joy unhindered and blossoming under the sun and fresh air that fills my home and my heart.


Golden buzzer moments on talent shows ! When a participant is awarded the golden buzzer, the entire audience jumps and dances with the joy of it…the judges included. The faces are such a beautiful sight to behold.
Such a beautiful celebration of our inner most instincts.

Those moments are special and so very magical !

The reason they reasonate so deeply with most of us, is because, that is truly who we are at soul level.
Unconditional, loving , giving beings, who revel in each others joy and success, who feel the euphoria of lifting someone up and feel uplifted ourselves in doing so.

Imagine , if we were to realise that the world is a stage and we do not have to ever go to a talent show to feel this incredible magic. It lies dormant within us at all times.

That in lifting , inspiring, encouraging ,cheering on, loving ourselves and others, we get to feel the same euphoria at any given time.

That our whole lives can be a series of magical moments…..just like the golden buzzer moments💜


” Thank you for the music ” by Abba
Ive been getting this song in my head every time I do reiki and today I woke up humming it, even though its not a song I know well. Ive always loved other songs from Abba but not this one.

It struck me that my higher consciousness was probably trying to communicate through my subconscious ! As my mind is kept so busy that I don’t consciously open up to communication .
So I looked up the lyrics and reading them, made me smile. Ive always loved Dr Wayne Dyers quote, ” Do not die with your music still in you ” and it seemed to apply to what I was feeling.

The last few days , Ive again felt a deep conviction that I will not ever feel the urge to create cakes like I used to ( I was a passionate cake decorator for almost 6 years until last year). I been feeling a slight sense of loss with that knowledge.
Now, as I hum this song, I realise we are singing the song we are meant to be singing at any given time.

So nothing is lost, as long as we don’t die with ‘our music still inside of us.’
In different circumstances , sometimes our “song ‘ changes …sometimes, what we need to do in life ,to express who we are and how we touch other lives , changes.

It is a continuous evolution.

As long as we keep singing , ( expressing ourselves and our gifts for making a difference in the lives around us ), it does not matter.

Life is supposed to be fun , not a job to be done.

Its never done and you are never finished. So why not have fun and sing your song.

A message from me …..to me ❤


We humans, are funny beings. We think our thoughts are so real.

We take stances , positions and sides based on our thoughts. We are willing to slay anyone who opposes them , with harsh words, cynicism and physical acts of violence.

Our thoughts are not even our own.

They are shaped by our beliefs which come from conditioning….of families we are born into, of the religions ,of the society we live in , of the country we feel we are citizen’s of, of elders and companions, who are AS deluded by their thoughts.

Some of the roots, of why we feel the way we do , go back even further.

We are completely unconscious and react based on these too.

If we could only learn to stop a moment before acting and reacting…we would become aware that BEHIND the voice in our heads that is loud, insistent, aggravating , defensive and offensive, there is a stillness. That stillness, if explored further, reveals who we really are.

A part of the One. Connected to each other as one.

The thought that” peace should be initiated by anyone else other than ‘me’ “, is also , therefore an illusion of separation. After all, there is no one else.

Only the one.


You are understanding at a deeper level that you can only ever strive to be a perfect fit …for you !
No one else !
And the beauty of that is, that when you are truly ,truly naked of all the masks and cloaks and are just simply yourself…you realise that you shine the brightest without those protective , deceptive coverings ……and that there was NEVER any need to hide behind cloaks and masks that you thought might deem you acceptable in different peoples eyes. The truth is…..they can only see you at the level that they see themselves…they can only love you within the limits that they set, to love themselves.
It was never about them. Its always between you and you 💖


All of the things, that happen TO us and AROUND us , are a call to come into balance …to keep coming into balance.
Everything that happens to us and around us, causes emotions and feelings within us , which give us clues and hints, as to what our divine source ‘s intention was, to start with.
This whole life’s purpose, is to come back into alignment with the divine source of creation from where we originated and deviated.
To see and feel the intention of creation from the same point of view as the creator.
Like an artist who shows his work…

The deep desire of an observer, to see and understand the creation ( painting ) would cause the observer to try and get into the head of the painter, in order to understand the intention and thought behind the painting.What was the thought behind the creation ?
The more we desire, as human beings, to understand the purpose of creation….the more we look at, not only what happens to us at the surface…but deeply within…to try and understand the intention behind…and with each little understanding , we come more and more into balance or alignment and move closer and closer to who we were meant to be.
All of this ( good and bad ) was created FOR us to do that. The day we get that , we stop classifying anything that occurs as good or bad , and simply view it as an opportunity to understand further, come into balance and come more into alignment with the creator or Divine source. The ultimate destination is achieving the complete unity from whence we originated. ALL of us, are on this path home. All of us will get there , sooner or later. It is a given.


You do not owe it to anybody to go in the general direction that everybody goes in …you were not created to do that. You do not owe it to anybody to tell the stories that are ‘ age appropriate’, ‘society approved ‘ , or in any way conventional.

Tell the stories that make you happy. Those that uplift you.
You ALSO, do not owe it to ANYBODY , to listen to their stories if they do not uplift or inspire you.

It is entirely their choice what they choose to focus on and give energy to, and the stories they want to tell.
And it is yours to walk away when they do ❤


There is a difference between doing and being (your divinity). Doing focusses so much on the action that the essence of it sometimes can be lost in the actions.
Being is effortless …it is merely being mindful of what you have learnt or remembered about who you really are and then proceeding with your day and night…in fact all of your moments. Little by little. Moment by moment.

Doing is more at the beginning when you feel the need for action in order to break old barriers and habits and belief systems. It still comes from a vague feeling of fear. Of validating or requiring validation. ‘Being’ sets you free. There is no validation needed at all and one is free to just be.

Contrary to the discipline of ‘doing’ and feeling the shortage of time, now one begins to feel free of the constraints of time. One moment merges into the next with ease and wonder and makes one rejoice in the freedom and perfection of it all. ‘Being’ is the way . ‘Doing’ is a temptation that comes from time to time and is not necessarily bad. Sometimes it is even necessary to tame ones runaway mind. But settling into the ‘being’ is a comfortable feeling.

Nothing to prove ,nothing to validate.

Just living, breathing and being ….the most powerful expression of your divinity and that is what makes the most difference vibrationally.

“Doing” has a different vibration and” being” a different one.”

Being” effortlessly translates into uplifting others as well through not only your own vibrations but also through inspiratiom and in evoking memories in other souls, as to their own true nature.


Dear Teacher,
In your great wisdom, you did not teach me all there is to know.

You knew I was not ready. You also knew that I would get there in my own time and in my own unique way.

That ‘your way ‘ , was not necessarily mine. You knew that I would be impatient and upset at times, that you would not make it easier for me by just telling me what I needed to know.

I expected at times , for you to hold my hand and gently lead the way so I could get there with your knowledge and experience. But you knew better , and merely pointed me in the general direction and let me stumble and fall and find how to pick myself up and walk again.
The road feels hard at times but mostly , oh so satisfying.

Because you allowed me to do it myself.

To find my own unique way to our common destination ❤