When you are a child you start to form an ego…a structured approach to the seeming duality of life.

This structure helps you make sense of the world.
The stronger the fear, the more rigid the structure.
The stronger the fear, the more you sense the dual nature of life.
The more strongly you feel the urge to approve or reject.

The whole journey of awakening is when you start to rise above this duality and sense that you do not need to operate from fear at all.
That all of life is designed perfectly, for you.
For you to transcend the ego.

As the fear dissipates, so does your need for this egoic structure.

This process is so beautiful. 

So breathtaking in its perfection.

Life, from the moment you begin, is all about letting go.

As much and in as many ways as possible.

I do not see the world the way you do
You do not see it the way I do

Do I need to see the world the way you do ?
Do I need you to see it the way I do ?

What if we both sit in agreeable silence….not the kinds that is full of our minds chatter.
But the silence of peace.

The kind of peace that comes with the understanding that love bridges the difference in the way we see things.

That Love is the only truth.
The only real thing anyway.
That it far outweighs all else.

Simi

What if ….we treated each desire as a training ground to transcend it ?

What if, we allowed the discomfort of the awareness of that desire, without giving in to it ?

What if we were kind to ourselves whilst doing this…again and again and again….until the ‘need’ no longer had a hold over us ?

What if we attained sweet liberation from all needs, one by one ?

The greatest gift of being in a human experience is also its greatest test.

The gift of choice.

The ability to choose….the ability to accept or reject.

We complicate our own experience so much by just this availability of choice….or atleast the perception of this availability of choice.

The Divine Laws operate the same on all that is.

But we feel we can accept some and reject some.

We are subject to the same laws.

The gift of choice, is the gift of being able to be conscious to it all.

Awake to the divine unfolding of our lives.

We cause ourselves immense confusion and suffering when we feel we are not subject to these laws.

There is immense peace and harmony to be found when we relax into what is. Trusting it all.

There is a big beautiful regal tree in front of my balcony.

This morning it rained. A lot. The tree was there, looking beautiful, probably sheltering the birds that live on this estate.

Now the sun is shining and the tree is there….peaceful, harmonious.

I feel peace whilst looking at it through the rain and sunshine.

Accepting of it all.

We, as humans have the choice to being AWAKE to the preciousness of this life.

Yet we waste so much of our  awareness and energy into the  rejecting, complaining, worrying, fearing…..

It is what it is.

Acceptance, awareness and faith makes it so much nicer to be human.

An insight is coming through today. Its wispy yet I feel its essence.

Another level of liberation to be had.

We choose our bodies.

This made me feel there must be a deeper reason to why we do so.

When we think about our bodies, we think of the most obvious representation – our physical body.

But our physical body is only one aspect of this body.

The layers of the energy body is what is meant by ” we choose our body”.

Why is this important ?

Because it takes away the separation at another level.

On the earth plane, there has so far been a ” time bound – linear narrative ” of a souls journey.

Where the concept of past lives, generational trauma, generational habits, generational blocks comes into play.

When we ” choose ” a body, we actually choose a narrative.

For example take the different houses or teams in a school. Take the example of Harry Potter and the different houses in Hogwarts. Each house had a specific narrative. And those that joined a house, became a part of that narrative.

They inherited its positives as well as its negatives. However each member had a choice. They could choose ( free will ) how they carried forward the legacy.

What each member did then, became a part of that house’s legacy. How they acted, what values they imbibed, what they evolved from and let go off, affected the ” legacy ” of that house.

Similarly we as individual souls are all pure souls in our essence.

However in order to evolve we choose narratives.

So we choose our body in every lifetime. Which means we are choosing a linear narrative.

Ive often wondered about generational trauma.

If Im stuck with generational trauma, is it because Im born into the same family over and over again ? That does not feel true to me.


However if we look at it as a collective experience then it sort of makes sense.

There is a pool of experiences or narratives.

We choose the ones that help our highest growth. Like choosing a role literally.
But in forgetting our true nature, we assume the role so much that we feel its tough to separate ourself from its narrative.

We look at generational karma as being our own individual karma.
Hence ” the sins of the fathers will be visited on the sons” or something like that.

But actually we have CHOSEN the narrative.

Which means we feel capable of transmuting that bit of karma and take that collective narrative forward.

Which is also why we are taught that as long as we focus on our own individual path and strive to do the best we can with it, we help the collective.

There are many implications of this understanding.

But what strikes me at the moment is a sense of relief.

That we are not bound by the generational narrative of our families.
We can let go easier of generational ” illnesses” , ” fears ” , ” phobias” even desires or ambitions.

Habits or things our ” ancestors ” did.

By not taking it so personally.

By not assuming that things beyond your control have passed down to you because of a ” bloodline”

We choose these ” bloodlines ” and the narratives.

This even gives us the ” liberation ” from what we perceive to be our ” past lives ” and explains my previous insight of choosing timelines based on our focus.

Whilst this may be an experience that has been had as a part of the linear narrative, it is a part of the collective and in your current avatar, you have merely chosen it ( like a backstory) and now you have the opportunity to move past it

If we liberate ourselves from the narrative that we have chosen….our children have a chance to do the same.

Ironically, even this narrative of being bound to a narrative is propagated until your fear of being ” nothing ” dissipates.

Fear/ Ego wants you to “belong” ..to be a part of something…..anything that makes you feel that you exist.

Good, bad, it does not care.

It fears oblivion.

By going into your regular meditations, you are automatically elevating your vibrations to receive and transmit frequencies that are higher than before.
Isn’t this wonderful ?!

You will notice more and more synchronicities as you go.

Feeling worse is natural on this journey, as you let go of what weighs you down.
There is a deep fear associated with that letting go, not to mention the grief that accompanies it.

But when you strive to remember that you came here to evolve, to experience all that you could possibly be, you will also remember that the suffering is merely a part and parcel of the experience and not the whole experience.

That happiness is not the end goal….outside of you.

That, as you shed the things that weigh you down, happiness is your natural state.

Meet the grief that comes to you, the fear too. Merge with it, let it move through you and allow it passage.

When you do not resist it, and instead allow it expression….it purges a lot of the stuckness you feel and leaves you feeling so much lighter than before.

And so the dance continues…until you know that even these energies that you dislike feeling are allies. Helping you….FOR you…not against you.

You cannot reach me by rejecting ANY part of my expression in this world.

The way to me is through Love.

A love that is encompassing and inclusive.

A love that is not biased or dependent on anything.

You come to me by loving every being and experience you come across.

Its only fair, because that is how I have always loved you.

– Source

” Is raah pe chalte chalte ek chuppi si cha gayi hai
Jahan kal meri jabaan rukti na thi
Wahan aaj bolne se katrati hai

Is chupi main, na aasoon hai , na koi bhi gham.
Dil ki awaaz hi bas ab ,mere liye kafi hai

-Sim


There are different stages that one goes through, on the spiritual quest…every stage impermanent and interesting…if one chooses to look at it that way.

You can get attached to some phases …wanting to identify with them….but the whole journey is of meandering impermanence.

So remaining quietly aware and open to each transistion is the path of least resistance.

There is a phase when one wants to hibernate/ incubate / just be.

The quiet phase.

But then there is a phase where the joy of being on the physical plane takes on a new meaning and every little thing gives immense pleasure.

The attention goes outward again but the watcher is deeper inside you.
No longer on the surface. So one sees the same world with new eyes

” Aaj kal main,
kucch badal sa gaya hai
Sara jahaan, jaise baarish main,
dhul sa gaya hai
Har cheez mujhe ab aur saaf nazar aaye
Lekin  toote hue patte ki tarah ab mujhe , idhar udhar na kheench paye.

Yeh zindagi mujhe ab rehmat si lage
Sabhi aur dushman kam ,aur dost zyaada lage
Dekha jaye toh shaayad sabhi waisa hi hai jaise kal tha
Sirf mere purane nazariye ka kasoor tha

Sabhi mere jaise hi hain
Aur main unse mukhtalif kahaan
Sab yeh samajh jaye
Toh kitna sundar ho hamaara jahaan”

This earth experience is so very beautifully designed for a soul’s excursion into each lifetime.

Ever wondered why we have this complex method of being born?

If we are all individual expressions of source, why can’t we, just one day, simply come into existence?

Why do we come through our parents in the way we do ?
Why do we have the family we do ?

Why is there an age differential between our parents and us and our next generation?

Why is there even the concept of linear time ?
Why cannot everything start and end together ?
Why do we have to witness our parents age and become old whilst we watch our young ones go through the all familiar stages that we went through ?

When I think about these questions, Im in awe at how beautifully this single lifetime has been designed.

The different permutations and combinations are all perfect. 

Everything is designed to help us have the maximum experience possible.

Now it comes down to each one of us. Do we go through this incredible opportunity in a half asleep state or with the realisation of how precious and wonderful this opportunity is !

We can complain our way through it, live fearfully or we can embrace it all, growing through the process, using this wonderful opportunity to grow our hearts bigger than our physical bodies !

A single drop
The prelude to
A storm waiting to break
Like a cloud laden …..
With a zillion tears
lying in silent wait

Afraid of allowing that first drop
Afraid of the darkness it comes from
Afraid of what it unleashes
Afraid that once it starts,
It shall go on and on…

I wonder sometimes
if Im entirely made up of tears
Of darkness, of shadows that hide my very
deepest fears

What if, when the storm is done
And there are no more tears

What if there is no longer even me

perhaps that is what I truly fear